Pure Food Life

Understanding the Issue

While one is trying to recover from an eating disorder/disordered eating; the one recovering tends to hate the disease/problem.  What an internal source of evil!  What a plague of tormenting thoughts which circle in an endlessly cyclical fashion within one’s head that cannot be broken.

While one may hate their disorders/issues and want to get rid of them, to free themselves, they must remember one very important detail that is usually forgotten.   One forgets what their eating disorders do/did for them.  One did not just dream them up, they developed them for a purpose.  As smart female individuals, they developed this complex system for some reason: whatever that reason may be.  In one’s very essence, they developed their eating issues as coping mechanisms, distractions, vacations, drugs, breaks from their daily lives and the feelings that they come into contact with in their conscious realities.  What was going on in one’s life at the time was apparently so painful that they needed to find something less painful to take the pain away, but now here they are, and their good heroin has started to affect them negatively.  Causing more pain than the problem than one subconsciously hoped it would solve.

In order to recover these people must come to terms with the purpose their eating disorders have served in their lives.  It was their friend; it helped them to not feel emotions.  That magic  in the mind of an eating disordered individual acted as a translator of their emotions into tangible things like food, weight, and calories.

While it is truly hard to come to terms with what one’s disordered eating did/does for them, it is important.  Once one realized how they used their eating disorders to cope they can begin to develop the tools they need to deal with their emotions in a healthier way that is unrelated to food and fat.